this morning,didn't say my last goodbye to my tutor.no face.how would i know she wasn't even angry at me.perhaps one day,we might even cross paths.but i somehow feel a sense of loss.haiz.i hope i recover soon.and my heart feels weaker each day.last night,hyper-ventilated.scary sia.one hour,okaes?i really really need to get out all the hatred i have in me.went for mass just now.as usual,nearly fell sleep.haiz.and i didn't know i sprained my right foot last night.but it recovered with my TCM:D'it takes time for the wounds in me to heal.i want to erase you from my mind but you keep appearing'.my life is really upside-down now.dont know what to do liaos.cant concentrate.
So much for this feeling
Cause it's breaking me apart.
Are you just this cruel
Or do you have a heart?
You told me that you love me
That you could fulfill my deepest dreams.
But now that you're near me
All i want to do is scream
All i want is to be left alone.
But this you cannot see
All these problems that i have
You led them to me
I feel so broken with you here
I want you just to disappear
But whenever i tell you to go
You seem to reappear.
My heart is just so broken
All i can do is weep.
But as i sit and understand,
I put my life to sleep.